it's not your fault. life tends to shit on all of us, more than others. but we become stronger because of it. you're a sensitive person who has a wall up front. we all have one. you'll get what you've always wanted soon. it's gonna take some heartbreak and some pain, but you've got the good stuff coming to you
i hope this helps to brighten you up.
I rarely use tumblr to write long drawn out things about me but at this point i really just need to type.I really feel like everything i attempt to do is such a failure when it comes to relationships.Im pretty sure all my FRIENDS hate me even though they pretend they dont.I feel it radiating off them all the time.I havent liked someone seriously in a while and yet again i get faced with rejection.This time the blame is on me.I really dont believe i did anything wrong and i miss you already.Like its scary because i barely know you but every time my blackberry goes off,i wish its you but its not.Youre ON TO THE NEXT ONE.I dont understand why i can never keep anyone around.I feel like i just suck in general and i dont care enough to fix it.I want someone who will just give me butterflies and keep me close for a really long time.I need someone lately more than i ever had.I never find someone who fits into my categories though.You did.I wish i wasnt so bitchy and moody but i just am.Im rather sick of people figuring that out once theyre already important to me.Ive had enough.I wish you saw what i said on my formspring instead of what you saw on my facebook.Most of the things i do or say is just a front.Im really sensitive and i try to keep that hidden.I just want someone to make me feel something again.Anything but this disappointment.
damn it.i think for a moment i forgot how insane guys make me.literally,they drive me INSANE.My head wont stop conjuring up fucked up shit tonight.I already know it.Im going to make myself angry and im going to make myself look dumb.